#and i'd not be surprised if it was the case because he's a big hurricane touchdown fan soooooooo...

[digitalgate02]

I mean, Ukkomon can melt so I was playing with the idea of him being able to be able to take any shape he wants to (back in February) and it was a thought like "what if he can do that... but it looks more like a Gooigi sort of appearance" (Rui definitely forbid him doing that in public, but he accepts Ukkomon taking any form he wants to at home. Especially cat-shaped Ukkomon because Rui was converted into the cat life by Hikari)

Two Ukkomons would just give Rui a very tiny panic (i mean can he deal with two digimon like Wallace does?) -- but in Wallace's perspective that's not a big deal?

I really feel Rui and Wallace have a lot in common in role perspective, but we don't know much about Wallace's background besides vague ideas of his family (his mom being chubby, and whoever Amy is -- probably Wallace has a sis or it's a cousin, idk) meanwhile we got a good glimpse of Rui's family & life (including... erm, that part of his life too) but they're were also living stuck in denial caused by an unfortunate digi-event in their lives (Wallace briefly meeting Gummy & Choco and then Choco just getting infected by a mysterious virus in 1995; and Rui... well, that horror fuel scene in March 2003 ) and they also overcame said denial because of their short contact with the 02 kids (srsly, Daisuke really has a thing for sad boys who have lots of trauma and coping mechanisms) so they manage to solve their own main issue with their mons and their mons got back into egg state.

The funniest part of this combo is how much deceptive BOTH Wallace and Rui are initially. I love how they try so hard to not keep peeps getting involved in their own businesses, but turns out both cases those people were already involved there so they had to give up and tell them the real story, show their real selves and then get Motomiya Daisuke telling them something insightful and smart to make them open their eyes and solve their own endless dilemma...?

Yet, they do still feel like they... They can be an interesting, intriguing Jogress combo because i see Wallace can help Rui to deal with raising Ukkomon's egg -- I mean, Chocomon is back and fully hatched! He's like, the best figure for that (sorry Dai, I know the blonde boyo gets on your nerves but listen...!!). As for what Rui can help him in return, i guess to have someone who deeply understands the pain of losing a beloved one... And possibly working as Wallace's emotional support maybe?

I like to imagine Gummy-Choco teaching things to Ukko, things they learned through time and help the unhinged clione to behave and don't do anything bad. Wallace and Rui just bonding over their own experiences and perhaps make Daisuke go nuts with the idea of Wallace teaching wrong things to Rui (but HEY. both Wallace and Rui seem to like to tease Daisuke, so...)

Maybe at the first instance Rui and Ukkomon are like "?????????????? what" because Wallace and the twin-mons do not seem like the type of people who would get along with, but give them a few moments alone together and they might figure things out!? Especially if we consider the idea of... uh, Wallace being possibly the second kid in the world who got partnered with a digimon. I suspect Wallace met his mons in 1995 but got no digivice (it wasn't a partnership, just like the Koromon Taichi & Hikari met in the same year), and in the same year, he lost Chocomon -- Wallace does not mention when his mom got the egg, but he mentioned WHEN Chocomon disappeared... -- So in 1996, months after Rui, he might have gotten the second digivice in the world...?

"But the models are different..." Maybe it was the very first unit of the definitive™ version of the digivices...? idk... I'm still working on this 🤔 (also trying to make Maki-Daigo work with this as well...)

(if this got too long i'm sorry orz)

what if Wallace and Rui were… Jogress Partners--

[sincelastsession]

I'm reading my new book.

Adult Children of Emotionally Immature Parents.

I was in a freeze state all night and day and slept about 2hrs. I'm planning on getting to bed soon.

This entire book is my parents. Of the 4 subtypes they are a combo of all 4.

The stories in the book much like AA stories almost in a way...they sorta pale in comparison to what I've experienced. I do understand this was written probably for cases a bit less intense than mine.

I was calm most of the day because my partner helped me calm down by "allowing" me to put on my sub collar, wear earplugs, and he picked reading for me. It was extremely helpful. He then had to go to a family gathering and I didn't think I'd talk to him again this evening but he sent me some pictures of the view of where they met up. It was a really sweet surprise that I didn't expect as I was looking at my book and trying to relax some muscles in my back that are locked despite the library of coping mechanisms I have.

I'm still swooning over the pictures he sent. He's not great at taking pictures and I generally hate surprises but this made me happy.

I've called my psychiatrist and left a message to see if they'd call me back. I don't know if they have something temporary till my parents can get me moved that might sedate me enough or perhaps temporarily raise my anxiety med dose. I originally took 4mg and was down to 3on the script but I generally only take 2mgs a day which is a starter dose for my weight. I'm also an ultra fast metabolizer (geneticist tested me, i have the MTHFR gene too and she suspecs more mutationsbut i won'tsee her till next spring) I've tried to explain to ppl before that I'm VERY careful about my meds because I have had to be on them longterm. My now deceased psychiatrist who was also a neurologist explained to me not long before he unexpectedly passed that my brain is on fire from the ptsd from abuse since infancy. It's possible to get me stable if I feel safe etc... and it would be damaging to try to take me off these meds.

You know I'm still grieving my doctor. He was like a father figure that was regulated emotionally and I miss my conversations with him and him telling my own father off. I'm using the weighted blanket he got me as a gift because he had ptsd from war and understood.

I'm crying about it right now too.

I wish my psychiatrist now wasn't so stoic.

I miss being told "we'd work it out, and that I'd be ok" he was really trying to help. He asked about me on his death bed. We were a lot alike. He told me as a patient because I was smart, "too smart" and "very self aware" and tried to help me figure out a safe way to avoid my father who he treated before, who would call his office to bitch about me and demand my meds get changed or would tell my doctor that I was schizophrenic. My dad is fixated on this diagnosis. He says I act psychotic but I wonder if he'd stop in his tracks if presented with a mirror. I'm not psychotic. I'm very dysregulated but lucky to be self aware enough to do what I can.

Basically my living situation is not good. My neighbors are um fucking terrible. My apartment sits upstairs around a big courtyard and pool. It amplifies noise big time for me. I hear the interstate and people talking and screaming and gunshots and children screaming which triggers my Katrina traumas and it's about to be hurricane season coming up and I can't deal. Also the balcony, how I get to my apartment...the beams are rotting and breaking and me and the quiet neighbor are concerned it's all gonna fall on one side and take out the rest.

This is the current picture of the beam but it's getting slowly worse and I'm like HELL NO

I need to bring some coffee to my old psychiatrist's grave. He got told to stop drinking it a year before he passed. I need to visit anyway and let some grief out.

I'm mad because I've gotten so frozen up I have trouble leaving my apartment unless I have a friend with me on the phone or in person.

I hate relying on ppl for support because I'm scared they will get tired of me just like everyone seems to eventually do.

Travis has been a good friend. I hope I'm not causing him trouble. I worry he still is extra nice even when he says he just wants to help.

I have trouble with accepting my partner loves me but he showed surprised me with beach pictures and a video of the waves and a family pet. If i was going by cbt id say that's a hell of a cognitive distortion but it's not completely invalid. If he didn't love me then this would be a horrible elaborate ruse which I often worry about. The man is a very private northerner. I forget about the stark difference in behavior and how freakedout he was when i explained wafflehouse waitresses vs northern diners.

Me and my partner had a really great conversation and I learned a lot about each other. He's really cute. I'm still giggling abt him being with his family and his whole family is busy with this event and he took pictures for me. He told ne about his first jobs. It was cute.

He's a better speaker than me but we still I think had a good conversation.

He told me to meet him at the red house and we both discovered we stalk at the same level. Like we both found the house on Google maps going of the name of the poster. Like I'm impressed. I didn't realize guys did this shit? Do they do this way more than i think? Ugh im disgustedly in love with him like some long distance quirky hipster movie ew. Idk I feel like I may be better at that because one of my hyperfixations is finding things because likely autistic urge to understand other people because you literally feel like you're just an alien (not literally) and idk whatever point is...this man and me got more in common than I ever thought like I can't even explain it's like one of those weird couple things, this is not the first occurrence of us going like OMG YOU DO THE STRANGE THING TOO? Because there's just no unique experiences apparently and no such thing and coincidences imo at this point.

Honestly why even do anything else about that right now. I got way the fuck more to work on. I've typed enough today anyway.

Ok I'm going to bed. I'll try not to go insane.

[littlemessyjessi]

Eddie Munson and the Kawaii/Lovecore GF

Eddie Munson and the Kawaii/Lovecore GF 

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Ok, so I've done a few posts with Billy Hargrove and his Goth GF. 

And I made a post sort of hinting at Eddie Munson and his Kawaii GF. 

So like… hear me out here. 

So in this scenario we all know that Goth GF is like a little angel. 

Omg, she's so precious. 

She just makes her little sweets and she just wants friends.  And she's all shy and sweet and cute and just fucking precious. 

In case you haven't noticed… I love her. 

So let me present to you, Kawaii GF. 

Ok, here's the thought. 

Maybe Kawaii GF is one of those people who just drips in sparkles. 

Like the girl would damn near eat diamonds if she could and I'm fairly certain she bleeds glitter. 

Aesthetically speaking perhaps maybe combine kawaii notes with lovecore.  

Queen of Hearts who? 

But unlike Goth GF who is the literal human emboidiment of an actual fucking angel…. Kawaii GF is a straight up demon. 

I mean, not an actual demon but holy hell the attitude. 

I'll explain. 

So like maybe while Goth GF has lived in Hawkins her whole life… Kawaii GF is a new kid. 

And she spots Goth GF on her first day and makes a BEELINE towards her. 

And Billy is on the defense immediately because this girl, while admittedly a little obsessed with wearing pink and red with hearts and sparkles… seems like she could probably fit in fairly well with the popular kids if she tweaked it a little.

Even if she did look like Valentine's Day threw up on her. 

And she's also moving towards his precious little angel at an alarming rate. 

So he springs into action but she beats him there. 

And he just kinda stops because Goth GF is standing there blinking at the new kid with big eyes and a shy look.  

Maybe Kawaii GF is southern and she's just drawling on and on about how pretty Goth GF is and how she loves her lipstick. 

"Sugar, you just gotta tell me where you got that lipstick.  It is the PERFECT shade of red.  And unfortunately for me, I just finished my tube of 'passion nights' and I can't find anything around here in that particular shade. I thought I was plum outta luck but low and behold, I ain't here but fifteen minutes and I see a total babe with the exact color I need." she said.  

And Goth GF is just standing there flustered as fuck because holy hell this girl is pretty and maybe she's having a little bit of a bi panic moment and Billy's headed over. 

And she's just like totally overwhelmed and it shows but also Billy knows what she looks like when she gets butterflies because he's usually responsible for them. 

And so maybe he gets a little territorial and slings an arm over her shoulder. 

And new girl smiles at him, "Ooooh, this the boyfriend?" 

And Goth GF just nods all shy and new girl grins again, "Hot damn, you two make a good couple. Hotter than sin, the both of you." 

And now Billy gets it because damn the new girl is charasmatic as fuck. 

And then the hurricane that is Eddie Munson pops up out of nowhere effectively scaring the hell out of Goth GF who straight up squeaks in surprise. 

And he's talking a mile a minute but new girl can't even hear him because mother of God, this boy is perfect. 

Kawaii new girl has straight up anime heart eyes for him and I guess he feels it because he turns to her. 

And Munson just melts because she is literally the cutest thing he's ever laid eyes on. 

And then he's stammering over his words. 

And Kawaii girl just turns to goo even more because he's so cuuuute. 

And it's so fucking obvious to Billy and Goth GF so they're trying to hide their snickering and it snaps Kawaii girl out of it. 

"Uh, hi." Eddie says. 

"Hey, sugar.  Nice to meet you.  What's your name?" she says winking at him. 

And the boy literally hides behind his hair somewhat. 

"I'm Eddie." he said, clearing his throat and trying to at least regain some of his dignity. "What's yours?" 

"Well, my name is ____." she said. "But I'd much prefer it if you call me yours." 

And poor Eddie nearly dies right there. 

But also he damn near preens from the attention. 

"What a woman.." 

The group of them laugh and he flushes, "... did I say that outloud?" 

And Kawaii Girl just winks at him, "You did but I'm happy you think so.   You got plans tonight?" 

He just shakes his head. 

She grins, "You do now." 

Next thing he knows, his arm is being yanked towards her and she's scrawling her name and number along side the bat tattoos in sparkly red ink. 

And she's walking away and Eddie is lovestruck while Goth GF and Billy are laughing their asses off. 

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Hey, loves.  I hope you enjoyed this and was able to follow my random thought process.   I just think it's kinda fun to imagine the scenarios and I'd really like to write more of the four of them and their individual dynamics.   What do you think of referring to Goth GF as Angel because she literally is and maybe referring to Kawaii GF as Queenie.   Like Queen of Hearts? 

Anyway, I hope you liked it and I would love to hear your thoughts?  Also, if you'd rather me just turn this into a story with flushed out characters, please let me know because I could just as well do that!  

Love, K 

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